apparently a week for a hot mess of emotions

 this week has been a week where the universe has taken a collective shit on my world so that people in my life are hurting and i feel so helpless because i want to be there for them, specifically for my best friend. i'm offering words and love, but i can't help but feel that it's not enough. i hate that i'm not there to literally be there for her. i hate that i can't just hug her and sit shoulder to shoulder with her. i hate that i can't sit in silence with her. i also miss the fuck out of her, which makes me feel even more helpless.

and like, this doesn't even compare to what she's feeling? i don't want to unload my stuff onto her; that defeats the whole purpose of me being there for her. so i'm texting and waiting and hoping and thinking about her and sending lots and lots of love.